What running means to me

I can’t remeber if I have done a post on this before but some of you might know that I really enjoy running. Unfortunately, I suffered an accident at the end of October which meant I needed to take 6 months off of running to take the strain off my ankle. It was hard for me considering the fact that I loved running – it gave me freedom and helped me to be me. I really enjoyed it and I was really upset when I couldn’t do it anymore. It’s been 5 months since the incident so I have slowly decided to reintroduce myslef into running. I went for a 3 mile today and recorded one of my best times :).

The exciting thing for me about the whole thing is that I will be 18 at the start of the year next year meaning that I will finally be eligable to participate in marathons. After many years of pacience, I finally signed up to the 2020 London Marathon and my application was approved. 🙂 I don’t get to find out if I got in until the end of October. However, whether I get in or not, I will not stop training. It’s inally about time that I get back to doing something that makes me happy and this is certainly it.

Running a marthon is on my bucket list and running the London Marathon is another. I could essentially achieve both of those in just one run. It would be cheeky but possible. This won’t be an opporunity I will let swing by. I will really work for this. It’s going to be hard but life-changing.

I began running when I was 13 years old. I only really did it because I was angry at someone and I needed to get outside and get some fresh air. I didn’t think I would, but I really enjoyed it and I decided to do it again and again. I bought up my miles by 1 a week and I was running 10 miles in one go without even realising it. It was super exhausting but it was really fun. Despite all this, my mental health took a turn for the worse and my milage slowly but surely began to decrease. I could barely do a mile anymore and I decided to take a break.

When this happened, I got stressed out that I couldn’t run anymore and life was simply getting me down. I was running out of energy walking up and down the stairs so running was a complete no go for me. I was eating junk too. My body wasn’t getting the right nutrients to be able to handle the pressure and strain from running. Again, this was really upsetting but there were ways to get around it.

I began by sorting out my mental health. It was time to snap out of it. I joined a mental health group at school and they were all really supportive. The group allowed me to express myself (to a degree) and make an impact in other people’s lives whilst other people were making an impact on my life. After my mental health was at a better state, I started to work on other things before I was finally able to get back on top.

I guess that the lesson is that no matter how hard you work or how much you get done, your mental health will still be affected – but that’s okay. There are ways around it. You can do it.

Yugen – A thought about the universe which triggers an emotional response too deep to put into words.

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