*Please note that this is not aimed or something that I am currently experiencing, it’s just something that I have had difficulty with and I thought it would be fun to write about, enjoy ;)*
There have been many times in my life where I have ultimately felt like I have been replaced by someone or something else. I mean, there have been times where I HAVE been and I knew that was going to happen so I was okay with it. Like, most recently, I was replaced in my old job because I got a new one and subsequently left my old one. Obviously, this was going to happen and it needed to happen so, I was fine with it. But, when it comes to feeling replaced by a family member or a friend, it’s a different story.
There really is nothing worse than seeing that one person you bonded with so well and had such an amazing relationship with spending a lot more of their time with someone else all of a sudden. I’m not just talking about a romantic relationship either. Imagine your best friend just randomly forgets about you one day and you see and hear about them doing the things you two used to do together with someone completely different. Obviously, a person is allowed to have other friends; just like a lady is allowed to have other male friends whilst she is in a relationship. There is nothing wrong with it. It’s just sad when you slowly but surely get forgotten about.
There was a time not too long ago when I hadn’t heard from my friend in a very long time and I saw them surrounding themselves with someone else 24/7. To begin with, I couldn’t care less, all I want for my friends and family is happiness but when it got to the point of being ignored and cancelled on because of this person, it hurt. Badly. I mean, I didn’t say anything because I knew exactly how it would sound. It would ultimately make me sound selfish and crude and that is not at all what I want but, seeing my friend again would have been nice :/.
This experience made me feel useless and unwanted. I grew increasingly concerned that one day, they’ll be gone forever and, to this day, I can’t be sure if that will happen or not. I got to a point where I couldn’t decide what I wanted or what was best for me in that situation. I mean, whenever I wanted to go out and do something with this friend, the person that I felt like was replacing me would have to be there. I don’t know if this is selfish of me or not but, that ain’t fair. Being surrounded by that one person who is the reason you felt like you did something terrible? Lol, no thanks!
Even writing about it now makes me realise how ridiculous it is. Having to cancel plans that were planned with notice because the replacement was going to be there, sucked. I mean, come on. If you have to rely on other people for your happiness, then you need to take time to yourself. This is something I was told a lot a couple of years ago. It is so true. If someone can’t be happy without someone else, they’re going to destroy their mental state. It’s exactly what happened to me. Unfortunately, there is no getting through to people until it’s too late.
The phone works BOTH ways!
Yugen – A thought about the universe which triggers an emotional response too deep for words.