By the way, this was meant to go up yesterday (oops) but I fell asleep whilst writing it. Sorry!
Goodness, today has been a long but exciting day! I’ve faced a few fears today and I have loved every second of it. It’s been incredible. Despite spending a majority of my time in the pool at home, I have a phobia of open water. This means that I don’t like swimming in nature (like in a lake). But today, I was able to face that and I think I can safely say that I’m confident in the open water. I think I’m most scared of the unknown, I have no idea what is in that water and if I step on the wrong thing, it could be fatal. Luckily, this didn’t occur and I was able to leave the lake free of wounds.
So, this meant that I had conquered one of my fears when I was out canoeing today. But, there was still 1 left for me to do. All week, I have been buzzing to climb, it’s all I’ve been wanting to do and today, it finally came. That’s right, I went climbing! Now, if you know me well at all, you will know that 5 years ago, I went climbing and I was the only one in my group not to reach the top. I was devastated but I tried so hard, I just didn’t have it in me to get there. So, all week I have been excited to redeem myself by finally getting to the all-important top. Don’t get me wrong, it was nerve-racking so I just went for it. I went straight for the top. I didn’t look down until I was there. The views were stunning, I wish I were to have taken my phone to get some pictures. Anyway, I had finally done it but now, I had to get down. Now, I don’t know how else I was going to get down but I didn’t realise we had to abseil! The beginning of the abseiling was scary because you had to jump a little bit before you could go anywhere. We are born with the fear of falling and failing so naturally, this part was freaky!
All in all, today has been my favorite day out of them all. Not only have I been able to complete two amazing activities but, I have been able to conquer two really big fears that I have had for many years.
People often ask about fear. But today, I learned that we are only born with two natural fears. The fear of falling and the fear of failure. The reason we don’t like falling is that we are aware that we don’t have the ability to fly because we don’t have wings. We also know that if we fall, we have failed. Now, we don’t like failing because it doesn’t feel good and it doesn’t look good either. As humans, we naturally don’t like it when we fail because we want to succeed to make ourselves look good and be successful.
Think about these things the next time you feel like you’re going to fall, fail or both. If this happens, realise why it’s going to happen and attempt to either embrace it or avoid it. This could benefit you!
Yugen – An emotional response about the universe too deep for an emotional response.