Today’s blog is one that I can relate to because I feel as if there was a point in my life where I was unable to climb my way back up.
Back in 2016, I was at the highest point of my life, the ‘tip of the iceberg’ if you like. I was so happy to be me and be alive at such a wonderful time in my life. I was so excited to start life and be who I really wanted to be (a media teacher). But all of that came crashing down towards the end of the year when my cat passed away. This came with a long line of events that caused me to feel very low. After losing my cat, my relationship began to crumble until I no longer had one. The relationship meant a lot to me and it was a huge shock when it disappeared so quickly but, I was determined not to let it beat me. I began to use advice from others and within 6 months I started to get back up on my feet meaning that I could be me again.
When I was at rock bottom, things were really bad. I began to miss lessons because I couldn’t concentrate and my social life was majorly affected. This meant that I lost all of my friends because I cut myself off from the world. I had to start fresh and it wasn’t easy. I wanted a new slate so I decided to change my name. This is something that I have only just been able to put into action, but, I must say that it has made me so happy to be known as a new person – the person I wanted to be from the very start. After I changed my name, I began to grow vast amounts of confidence. Amazingly, this meant that I could finally walk through school or in public without thinking that I was being judged. This was a huge step forward for me and my new identity helped more than anything.
Since I’ve been known differently, I’ve been a different person. People have told me that they have seen a “massive, positive change” in my person and all of it has come down to me being able to tell myself that things will eventually get better. I was right. The feeling that I get now is just incredible and sometimes, it’s easier than you think. Bringing yourself up can be as easy as taking yourself down. Fortunately, this is great for people with a lack of self-confidence.
I mean, you don’t have to have a new identity completely (like I did) but sometimes even a minor change to your person is a massive step in the right direction, you could change
- Your hairstyle
- Your makeup
- Your athletic ability
- Your attitude
- Your Manners
Anyway, what I’m trying to say is that it’s okay to hit the bottom but you need to make sure that you’re persistently attempting to get yourself back up again because you will make yourself feel so much better when you do. Just keep telling yourself simple things like:
- “You can do it!”
- “You’ve got this!
- “Things will be okay one day!”
- “I just have to keep going!”
Eventually, you will believe and love yourself the way you should because you will have been able to notice that something major needs to change.
Remember – You’ve got this!”
“The weak fall, but the strong will remain and never go under!” -Anne Frank
Yugen – An awareness of the universe which triggers an emotional thought too deep for words.